A Prayer To Change Your Mind And Erase The Past

Most Precious Lord Jesus…
Gentle And Wonderful God…
Truly Awesome And Ever-present Holy Spirit…
Reality has never been my friend.
Reality has always been my enemy.
If I had to go back and relive what was said to me and said about me, and what I've been forced to see, I'd die from the awful nature of it.
Just the reality of what has happened to me and the reality of things done to me over which I have had no control, is too awful to think about.
I know about sin too.
Sin in others has hurt me beyond my words.
Sin in me, the sin I passed on from the sin done to me, the sin in me has hurt others like I have been hurt.
I want to run away from all this sin.
I want a tonic so I don't have to live with these awful memories.
I want an anesthetic to make me forget.
See my tears, Lord?
See my darkened heart?
How can I face facts?
How can I face reality?
I'm standing here, looking at you suffer on the cross.
What kind of reality is this?
I hear your voice in me telling me to turn away from my past of sin.
I hear your voice in me telling me all things will be made new if I turn to you.
I want to turn.
I want to turn away from the sin in my past.
Can you help me turn Lord?
I don't think I can turn by myself.
Can you erase things for me?
I can't erase things on my own.
Can you give me a new reality?
I can't make a new reality on my own.
I hear your voice calling me.
I hear your voice telling me you love me.
I hear your voice and in your voice I can feel your love.
I never felt love before.
I never felt this kind of good before.
This is nice.
This is OK.
Can we sit and talk for awhile?
You know, this could be OK.
All these things I humbly pray in the name of my most Blessed Lord Jesus Christ, my Mighty God, and my Ever-present Holy Spirit upon whom I can rely.
Amen