The following conversation between a believer and God is not meant to
represent a specific theology or theological truth. It represents one
believer's struggle and the response that believer represents as God's
truth for that believer and that believer alone.
love you, Lord.
love you back, my son. You want to know about where I was before I was.
Yes, humorously put, I want to
know where or who or what you were before you created all things. I want
to know how you could exist if nothing else existed. I want to know how
you came into being.
You ask too much. You give me
joy in wanting to know the unknowable. I always was. I am love. Love
always ways. I have no beginning and no end. I am a circle. I am a seed
of complexity that is infinite but I am not a seed here. Only in your
own way of thinking am I like a seed. I extend to the outer most edges
of this reality and all other realms. At the edge of all other realms I
keep going forever and ever and ever.
How could you not have started
out? I can see how you could go on into eternity from a present
beginning but how could you not start somewhere being you?
There was a time when there
was no time. There was a time when there was no space or reality as you
know it. When I created time and reality and realms as you think of
them, I went from being who I was before as Creator to being Creator.
When I created time as you think of time, I went from everlasting to
everlasting. However, in Heaven, in my present place, there is no time.
There is only joy, only love, only rejoicing beyond anything you can
fathom. The questions you ask are good questions but no one cares here.
We are all too happy and too joyous to care about what was before there
Why did you create all that is?
I was lonely. I was just by
myself. Love is to be shared and I had no one to share myself with. I
created you so I could share myself with you. I also gave you the
ability to choose whether you wanted to share yourself with me. I love
you beyond your understanding. I sent my son to tell you and show you
how much I love you. I created every person so I could share myself with
them and they could share themselves with me. When love and adoration is
shared between you and me, creation flowers and blossoms.
How did you create molecules and
basic elements? How did you create electrons, protons, neutrons, quarks,
and other sub-atomic particles?
I thought about them.
What about sin?
I cannot look at it like you
think of looking. I detest it. Sin is anti-God. Sin is anti-love. Sin
kills, hurts, and destroys. I love you but I cannot bear to see the sin
in you or other people. There will come a time when I cannot bear to see
the sin of the world and then things will change forever. I grieve when
there is sin. I grieve beyond anyone's ability to fathom when there is
sin. I cannot take the grieving for much longer. I cannot bear the hurt
of the sin of the world much longer. The sin of the world is like a
pressure pushing against the boundaries of heaven. At some point, I will
say no more and then there will be no more sin. At some point, the
pressure of sin will be so great the sin will push against me and the
sin will destroy itself because of the pressure against me. This is how
you need to understand wrath. I am capable of wrath but not as you want
to think of wrath. My wrath is the result of sin pushing against me and
when sin pushes against me the sin sets up its own destruction. Think of
pushing your hand against a concrete wall. If you could push and push
and push until your hand hurt and eventually pushed until your bones
break, that is what my wrath is like. Where there is no sin there is no
wrath because there is no pressure against my love. When there is sin,
there is a pressure that will destroy the sin. The sin pushes on me and
the pressure the sin exerts eventually causes the destruction of the
If this is true in regard to sin
and your wrath, why have you let sin exist at all?
If this is true? Do you not
Yes, Lord. I do believe.
Sometimes I slip up.
I was teasing you a little.
Yes, I know.
I have had to let the ball of
creation roll on for there are souls to be given the chance to live and
glorify me. In glorifying me, these souls glorify themselves. When a
soul glorifies me, and in turn, glorifies itself, all of creation is
steeped in the glory. There is joy unspeakable when a soul rises above
sin and reaches out to me in humble adoration.
Is there a specific time when a
given amount of sin pressure will cause the end of all things as we know
No one knows the specific
time. You can see the signs of sin and what sin does. When sin gets to a
certain point then the end will come. The end of all that is can be and
is determined by the level of sin in the world.
Tomorrow, if the whole world fell
before you in love and adoration and sin became almost non-existent,
would that set the clock back in terms of the end of things as we know
Tomorrow, if the whole world
suddenly fell into deep sin, and even the remnant you have now was to
fall into deep sin, would that set the clock up in terms of your ending
things as they are now?
I will not end things as they
are now. What will end things as they are now is the amount of sin in
the world pressing against me and causing its own destruction along with
the destruction of the world. Sin in the world destroys people,
families, nations, and eventually sin will destroy the world as you know
it. I have given you freedom and control over what happens in the days
to come. The more people repent and fall down before me in love and
adoration then the more time there will be until all things end.
However, sin and Satan are in a desperate race to end things by
consuming everyone as fast as possible. Look around you. Look and see. I
am not revealing anything you do not already know.
Thank you Lord. I love you.
Thank you, my son. I love you
back in infinite ways.